I just had to blog today after experiencing a more positive boost yesterday which give me a reason to keep on going. It's all too easy to feel dejected in a world where sometimes it looks like 'anything goes' I know I am on the other extreme, which is just as detrimental by my need to strive for perfectionism which in turn makes me feel I am lacking in skills of any nature. It's finding the balance which is the most difficult bit, no matter which end of the scale we are.
I wouldn't go into specific details and I know I have a long way to go before I hit the balance in my life although I know who holds my future and have left my doubts and fears in His hands.
The weather has been quite unbelievable recently which didn't help with our trips out for photographs or even just for quality time away from routine. I admit when dad suggested a trip out yesterday, my first reaction was that I didn't want to go out at all. I thought of everything we could be doing to make good use of our time and going out wasn't one of them. I knew I had started to feel the old feelings of doubt and fear of the unexpected. To make matters worse for me the destination was one we hadn't been to, or at least I hadn't been there before. We didn't actually reach the planned destination which is something we have planned for another day. The only horrible bit of our afternoon was sitting in traffic as we approached Carrickfergus. The long string of cars due to ongoing road works wasn't exactly adding confidence to my mind. Unfortunately these roadworks are set to continue until quite late in 2015.
As soon as I noticed the coastline below us my mind felt refreshed. Dad turned off towards Whitehead to let me see the coastline a bit closer when I spotted some very colourful upturned canoes/kayaks. Well this was the start of our colour themed day. Scenes unfolded and soon I recognised a connection which was adding confidence to the way I had started out feeling. We only got out of the car so I could try to get a photo of the colourful display, although the high fence and distance made negotiating a bit difficult. I still loved the colours as the wind blew us along the path!
Off course path man was with me so the little tunnel was one to explore which led us out to the sea front. The waves were high and splashing up over the wall. I don't know how we stayed on the ground as huge chunks of seaweed where strewn up to the houses. Dad decided he should go back and lock the car as I had spied colourful houses. This may sound odd but it's always been a goal for me to find colourful beach huts or houses. I didn't expect as brightly coloured houses but on a day when the sea was tumultuous (just like my mind had been) any sort of colour was attractive. I didn't mind if this was all we saw on our trip as it was a photo I had envisaged for a long time. Another one I would love to accomplish is Dublin doors although that's a longer trip for us to find a photo of these.
Everyday things to most people were special to me yesterday. I didn't even notice people sitting in the car right at the spot where I was shooting with my iPhone. I had left my gloves and my Canon camera in the car as we had only got out for one photo! Thankfully I had my rechargeable hand warmers in my pockets as we didn't get back to the car for approximately an hour and a half or maybe two hours! I can highly recommend these to anyone who suffers from chronic pain due to extremely cold hands. They really are superior to any I have tried in the past.
We kept walking and the ended up in the midst of some lovely Victorian and Edwardian houses (marking these for a return photography trip) we had noticed a little coffee shop when driving through and decided to find it. Very eclectic collection of quaint style inside. The next part our colour themed day was just along the road. Thankfully as dad came along he noticed a shop which I didn't see as I was trying to get back to the path we had come along in order to get back to the car as time was moving along.
Time? I went into the first shop and I forgot time as my eyes feasted on wool, threads, patterns, material, crafting supplies, handmade items. I was lost in a world which never fails to lift my mind. My doctor always encouraged handwork and crafts and in the past weeks the reasons have been manifested to me. People in the shop were friendly and so helpful. My eyes jumped from one corner to the other as there was so much inspiration in this shop. Nobody watched making me feel I couldn't lift or touch the textures and colours throughout this tiny yet stuffed shop. How wonderful when the lady who owns the shop finished serving and came over to say that she hadn't even said 'Hello' to us! Dad even felt the warmth of welcome as he chatted to a lady who was busy crocheting at a table. He was secretly shopping too as when I opened a bag this morning there was the ceramic pot wool holder I had looked at but set right back as it was too special just to buy on a casual day out. I have looked longingly at these online but never thought I would have one, maybe dad thought it's to speed up my knitting of his jumper!
Please click to enjoy the textures and colours
There was another shop adjoining this one which had different gifts too. Once again I managed to select some special gifts for friends which are unique and hand made. I have to keep these secret just now but I loved them so much I had to buy two of most of them! By now both of us were tired and knew it was too late to go on to The Gobbins, our original destination, actually we still need to find them. Anticipating the traffic at Carrickfergus we knew it was time to set off home as I still had to make dad his dinner and get to bed (I am normally in bed very early especially after a day like this)
One more thing.......I remembered another gift I should have bought so I had to go back into the shop as dad waited outside this time. Oh dear I have added a special place to my list today as I have ideas for another gift so if we go back before Christmas, guess which shop I will visit?
I have chosen some photos to convey our colourful day and once again my mind is alight with my love of crafts. An area I don't think I excel at due to my lack of confidence but I can always say "a thousand dreams within me softly burn"